Waves

I gave up again today,
but not in the usual way
where I am defeated
by you.
Rather, I gave IN today:
we don't have to do it my way
We can just go with it.
I want to feel,
I want to feel everything.
No more shying from the light
or swimming against the current
just for the fight.
Instead I will let the waves
flow through me;
fill the spaces in between,
what can and cannot be seen.